I am on the cusp of making a lifelong commitment to one single solitary wonderful person. I am extremely fortunate that she’s such a wonderful person, and doesn’t mind putting up with my lifestyle to some extent. When I say lifestyle, I’m referring to the hours spent on the computer drawing even though I’ve just spent 8 hours at work on the computer. She has great confidence in me and really that’s all I’ve ever wanted, just someone that believes what I’m doing is worthwhile.

Drawing a cartoon is very much a commitment, though it’s easier than most relationships. I’ve never had to work hard at wanting to draw all day, I just do. In the same respect, I’ve never had to work hard at being in love, but showing my love is sometimes very hard. Love can be embarrassing because inherent in love is need, and needs can be confused for weakness. It takes a strong person to admit they love, and need to be loved in return.

I’m lucky because I’ve had a lot of experience with embarrassment, and need. Humor has an underlying requirement of embarrassment. To be funny you have to ride the razors edge of awkward, and hope someone will laugh at you. I do it because I need the laughter, and attention. That is of course until I found love. The only thing that could make me secure enough to be funny on my own terms, and fill the world with happiness. The only thing that could give me the strength to not need acceptance.

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